We can all have hope in our sufferings…
Since losing both my Sister and Mum within two months of each other last year..
I came to my rock bottom again… heartbroken…
My life was turned upside down and inside out..in every way..I just wanted to hide away with my pain as I didn’t know how to deal with it..I lost my Freedom Within Life
Having spent the last six months like this trying to make sense of life..my life..life in general..my future life and past life..
I found myself going right back to my past..back to the beginning again..to my journey so far..during this reflection and healing process..it also highlighted to me my searching since a very young age..
I decided to start this blog about my journey so that I can help others..along with helping myself to piece all the bits together..process it and let it go..so that I can keep moving forward..with Freedom.
Looking back I have every reason not to have Freedom Within Life.
From a very early age..I was filled with a emptiness..I was searching and searching..I didn’t know what I was searching for..I felt I didn’t belong in the life I was given..I just knew there had to be more to my life..
I wanted to feel whole and despite the odds being against me in every direction as you will see below. I finally found what I was searching for “Freedom” and it truly saved my life..
I first created Freedom Within Life back in 2013 after having a near death experience in 2010 followed by a awakening and a thirst for sharing my knowledge and healing with others.
Here’s a little titbit of some of what I will be sharing in future blogs..
Patterns we repeat and how to get out of the patterns and heal from the inside out “Freedom Within Life”
How being born into a very dysfunctional family..growing up with low self belief in myself..my unworthiness was attracting my worst nightmares..creating the life I was living..
How we can change..despite our circumstances..how do I know this?because that’s exactly what I have done..
My Early Days..Tried to take my own life on numerous occasions from the early age of 12. Left home at the age of 14. Nervous breakdown at age 15 and fell pregnant at the young age of 18.
Went on to have 5 Children with very Dysfunctional Partners due to my low self worth..
Each partner cheated on me and had a addiction of some sort..Alcohol Gambling..Drugs..Women etc..
Lessons I learnt over the last 31 Years bringing up my Children as a Single Parent..with no help or support in any way from my dysfunctional partners..
Being brought up a Catholic..questioning my faith and that of other religions..went on to join the Born Again Christians..back to Catholic..at the same time I used to allow the Mormons and Jehovahs who would knock on my door to preach into my home and question their faith..to see if they had the answers I was looking for..
Along with studying Tarot and Runes etc from the age of 16..and having different experiences of the spirit world..still looking for and not finding the answers..
It wasn’t until later in life..that I came to the understanding that “what we believe is what we attract to ourselves” everything is energy..our thoughts..feelings..the universe is made up of energy..of which I started seeing and feeling after my Awakening in 2010
Despite everything above..I have always tried to help others..always had very strong intuition from a very early age..signs from the universe as early as 3 years old that there was more to this journey we call life..
I believe my life path has took me here to share my experience and this has always been my purpose in life..the reason I was put on this earth.
Love & Freedom
Jackie X
